one minute with you

Is so much better than two without you.

     Living in Idaho I was blessed to meet the people that I have met. I can easily say they have all changed my life, I will always cherish them. Yet living with all of these great people just reminded me how important the people I already had in my life were. When I was 16 years old my family slowly started leaving me. It was really quite rude now that I think about it. Brandie and Andrew moved to Reno before but I still had everyone else so the hugeness of that didn't really set in. Luckily they both came back and I never had to watch them move away again. Christie went to Idaho and ended up married and living in Florida. I'm pretty sure I ruined her wedding video because I'm standing there crying like a baby watching her join a life with Adam and all I could think was 'why are you leaving me too' . Poor Adam had to deal with me coming to visit every summer because I just couldn't let her go. Then Buddy goes and joins the Air force leaving all of us completely destroyed because when he left he took his sweet spirit and the impact it had on all of us daily. He never realized it but him leaving was harder on our family than I think anything else. He was our glue (;

     Tayler Nicole thought it was cool to move to St. Geezy and make me lose my best friend since 5th grade. Kelsey went to Provo for school likes it important or something. Ricky went on a mission for two years to stinking Denmark and Caitlin may not have left but she just kept having babies and making her life way to busy for me to be the center of attention anymore. (rude)  My amazing parents were all crazy busy and I was too stubborn to realize just how much I loved and needed them. The Burleys moved to Alabama and when you take all these people away I was pretty much on my own.  SO, I moved away too, and I became the traitor that abandons everyone. I've been gone for over two years and by the time I move home it will be almost three.
thinking about how much it effected me to have all these people I love away from me makes me laugh. I'm still so dead set against people leaving me, yet my two best friends haven't had me in Vegas for over two years, and they never tell me not to chase my dreams. Travis met me 3 months before I left and I am so grateful that we decided to stay in contact and grow a friendship that I depended on EVERYDAY. He is the person that i tell everything to, even the stuff that makes me so uncomfortable he just laughs in my face. He's my best, i don't know why, or how but he really is. I'm pretty lucky to have him for a friend. Then there is Hayli and she needs me more than I ever thought a person would. I realize all the people that I depend on so heavily depend on me right back, Hayli tells me almost everyday now how much I need to come home and that I'm never allowed to leave again. She says she ready to have her best friend living close again and to be honest I am too.

      I'm so ready to have these people back in my life on a daily/semi-daily basis. MY FAMILY will finally be within a few minutes of me everyday, I can see them anytime I choose and never have to feel homesick because home will be right down the street instead of 10 hours down the interstate. MY friends will be there when I'm sitting home alone on a Saturday night and wishing I had someone to talk to. (with the exception of Tayler Wright who will be a little over an hour away, still closer than 9 hours right?)  I'll be able to see them in person rather than trying to picture them when I'm on the phone with them. My siblings will grow up knowing me again, instead of just knowing a voice over the phone. I'll be able to see Regan's dance recital for the first time and watch Matthew play sports and piano. I'll go to field days and I'll see them change everyday. I was so ready to leave my 'hometown' I didn't even hesitate. I made the plans and I started my adventure. But what I didn't realize was I will never be ready to leave my family and those friends that over the years have become family.

     I'm grateful I left, I was able to grow up, and while growing up I was able to mend fences and un burn all my bridges.I know when I go back that my life will run more smoothly than it ever has. I know that my family and I will finally get along because I no longer think I'm so different than them. I know that my friends and I will make tons of new memories and that I'll make new friends and new people will come into my life there just like they have here. But hopefully I won't be leaving them anytime soon, or even if I do I know that I have people that will ALWAYS be apart of my life so it's okay if the others do leave, or if I leave them. I'm so happy with life it's silly, I never thought that working 13 hours a day and going to the gym every night, simply to get up and do it all again the next day, would ever be the thing that made me completely happy in life. Yet it has, I know what I want now and I know how to get it. I'm so ready for these next 84 days to go by, so that I can move into the next stage of life. IT JUST NEEDS TO HURRY UP AND GET HERE!